2008 in review

The year is at its end - THANKYOUGODDESS!!!! I cannot tell you how much crap has been thrown at me and mine this year. Family dramas, engagements, cancelled engagements, injuries, surgery, suicides, death, births, house dramas... it just goes on and on. So here's a more balanced review of 2008:

What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
Proposed to my sweetheart

Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions?
- do today what I can, rather than putting it off for tomorrow (getting better at this!)
- get back into yoga (sadly no but I have had a shoulder op so that's not surprising)
- enjoy the day and forget about tomorrow; live in the moment! (getting better at this too!)
- save 10% of my wages by the end of the year (bwahahahahahahaha - not even close but working on it)
- live within my means most of the time (improving)
- not buy any clothes (most of the year but not by choice)
- similarly, knit and craft from stash only (improving on this too)

Overall - not a bad year

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Heh - that's amusing as a student midwife. Close personally? Yes, a couple of friends did. No relatives as yet.

Did anyone close to you die?
Yes - one just the other day which still has me reeling

What countries/states did you visit?
New South Wales only - that's kind of sad!

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
My arm back in one piece with full range of movement; a husband

What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory?
17th May - the day I proposed!

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Surviving the year and not giving up

What was your biggest failure?
Being less fit than when I started the year

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Shoulder issues, bronchitis of doom and that's about it

What was the best thing you bought?
My new car - her name is Saffron and she is yellow and an automatic. Best thing I bought by far!

Whose behavior merited celebration?
My own in completing this year with a strong GPA

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Anyone involved in Darfur

Where did most of your money go?
Rent, bills and new glasses

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Homebirth conference

What song/album will always remind you of 2008?
Faker: This Heart Attack

Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. happier or sadder? happier
2. thinner or fatter? fatter
3. richer or poorer? richer in lots of ways and not just in money (though just barely)

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Smiled and laughed

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Cried

How did/will you spend Christmas?
Caroling at the rowing club, then bbq lunch at home, and later a turkey roll and some veges in the crockpot

How did/will you spend New Year's?
Mexican party at A&A's house

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Osk

Did you fall in love in 2008?
Ever more!

How many one night stands in this last year?
Hmmmm - I could say "2" or "200" and you'd never know, would you ;)

What was your favorite TV show?
Life on Mars

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yep

What did you want and get?
A fiance; a solution to my shoulder issues; a pathway to healing

What did you want and not get?
To go to Ithica

What were your favorite films of this year?
Dark Knight, Quantum of Solace, St Trinians

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 28 and I had a joint party with a friend who is a day younger and 10 years older

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Red and orange make the world go around; tshirts and jeans are a staple

What kept you sane?
Osk, talking a lot, blogging, LJ, OS, Kate, Alice, alcohol and a sense of humour

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Daniel Vettori

What political issue stirred you the most?
Abortion legalisation in Victoria

Who did you miss?
Monica

Who was the best new person you met?
Kate!

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
I will survive whatever the world throws at me, and I don't have to be gracious about it and the sun will still come up tomorrow

3 recipes to contemplate

Chicken Biryani
"This is a delicious Pakistani/Indian rice dish which is often reserved for very special occasions such as weddings, parties, or holidays such as Ramadan. It has a lengthy preparation, but the work is definitely worth it. For biryani, always use long grain rice. Basmati rice with its thin, fine grains is the ideal variety to use. Ghee is butter that has been slowly melted so that the milk solids and golden liquid have been separated and can be used in place of vegetable oil to yield a more authentic taste."

Spaghetti and Meatballs
By Smitten Kitchen, one of my new fave blogs. "I could argue that the entire point of this site is for me to find a single reliable recipe for each of my favorite comfort foods, and in most cases, I’ve eventually run into some luck: matzo ball soup, macaroni and cheese, caesar salad and crumb cake. Heck, I’ve even added some of yours, like chicken and dumplings, fried chicken and sweet cherry pie. I think we should all be able to make these things at home, whenever we want."

Crockpot Oatmeal
Must dig out my timer so I can use my crockpot, and also find/buy/borrow a smaller crockpot. I love my crockpot!

Torrenting, copyright, internets - or "How I use my huge download for Good not Evil"

So the other night, I was watching a tv show. It matters not what I was watching. And a very cool song came on the background of a poignant spot in it... and so with just a few snippets of the lyrics, the interwebs gave me a song. Useful like that.

As an aside - ManFriend and I used to be long distance, once upon a time. We would quote lyrics to each other while chatting online during the long long days at work we had to suffer, and see if the other person knew what the song was. It's a plot device being used in books I'm reading at the moment (thanks for Craftastrophies for a fabulous stack of chic lit to keep me occuppied atm!) as well.

Christmas is on its way!

A meme - nothing much exciting going on here this week. We had our engagement party on the weekend, and it was a FUN time! Photos to come.

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
Wrapping paper - I love using recycled or repurposed paper though. I can't remember the last time I bought paper.

2. Real tree or Artificial?
Artificial, bordering on "none". Ours is about 30cm high and is silver. We have a 1.5m tall green artificial one but have nowhere to put it and no urge to. We're not big on Christmas. I like the holiday and the thought but it gets so swamped by the retail reality of it that it loses a lot of its gloss. I'm much more of the Pagan leaning than a Christian one as well, so midsummer is my preferred celebration.

3. When do you put up the tree?
Friday. We got it off the shelf and put it on the table.

4. When do you take the tree down?
Um - usually pretty quickly after Christmas. I prefer to have it down before New Years. By "down" I mean back on its shelf.

5. Do you like eggnog?
I've never had it to be honest.

6. Favorite gift received as a child?
A baking set with a rolling pin and a plastic rolling sheet. Loved it to pieces.

7. Hardest person to buy for?
My nephews - we give money into an account instead.

8. Easiest person to buy for?
My Dad - two polo shirts and a bag of jersey caramels, year after year. He loves it too as they're his favourite sweet, and he then gets two new shirts for the year. Or so he says.

9. Do you have a nativity scene?
No - see #2

10. Mail or email Christmas cards?
Mail if I send any at all.

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
Scented soaps which gave me such a bad migraine I had to be hospitalised.

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
Love Actually.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
All year round.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
Not directly - I have given some to charity though.

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
Cranberry sauce and turkey; cherry pie and custard

16. What decorations are on your tree?
Little bud lights as it's a tiny tree

17. Favorite Christmas song?
Deck the hall - a good pagan song ;)

18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home?
Not this year but usually

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?
No

20. Angel on top of tree or star?
Star

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?
Morning

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
People angsting about everything - money, presents, food, entertaining... it's exhausting to watch.

23 What theme or color are you using when you decorate?
Red and silver usually

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner?
Seafood

25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Jewellry if anything - silver, white gold, platinum with a clear colourless stone.

On the mend!

Woo! I am able to type slowly and carefully, because I get to have my arm out of my sling for a few hours at home only. Still in the sling most of the time, and to sleep, and to go out in public.

Five quick things:

• I've received 5 fantastic CDs from all over the country and one from the UK as well. I'll update to add all 5 here but for now I want to thank Dani Barley and Sooz for theirs.
  
• Mine have been posted so they'll get to other people sometime soon I guess. Mine went to: Sooz, Jan, Dani, Trixie, and Alma
  
• I'm enjoying some time off. I am actually enjoying sitting down and just doing not very much. At the moment that not very much includes watching a collection of really bad fantasy and sci-fi.
  
• I have orange nail polish. This makes me insanely happy.
• 2008 has blown goats for so many people around me. With still a week or so to go, I hope we've seen it all now.
  

On the other hand

sorry for the brevity but am typing one handed.
surgery was done. shoulder is sore and distressingly floppy.
hospitals suck.
drugs suck.
um.
6 wks of this? crap.

my view


yours

Better Books

Have you heard about the Better Books website?

Raising money for a great cause

My fiance is riding in the Juvenile Diabetes Ride for a Cure next year so I'm posting this on his behalf:

"I'm riding in the JDRF Ride to Cure Diabetes in January. I need to raise another $900 to do so, and although I have my workplace supporting me I can use any donations that anyone would like to give. It's easy to donate, just go to the website and use the secure form to donate. Thanks a lot in advance for your support!

He is also riding in the Tour Downunder - I'm ver proud of him! He looks hot in his little bike riding shorts and it's going to be amazing knowing he's part of such a huge peliton.

And... done

Things that I'm done with:

• cleaning my own house for a while - I have a cleaner coming on Monday. I'm sad that I am doing this but the reality is that in just a few days, I'll have the use of just one arm and be recovering from surgery. Manfriend works fulltime and is completing a thesis and has a right to a life that doesn't involve working 5-6 days a week and spending the other 2 days slaving at home. I am a student and that is part of my "job" in our relationship - part of the year I study, part of the year I'm on placement, and part of the year I'm just working a few days a week and keeping house the rest. It is my fulltime job to balance these things, and I don't do all the housework by any stretch of the imagination, but with one dud shoulder for the past 3 months (well, 18 months but only diagnosed for the past 3), the housework just hasn't gotten done much. Hence I am getting a cleaner. In theory, Allianz will pay for it for a few weeks post-surgery as it a direct consequence of the accident that I am getting someone in to do this... but I'll see.
  
• studying. I've finished for the year! Two exams done! I get to shred things and file things away! Woohoo!!!! I am now halfway through my degree. Next year I'll do one 3rd year subject in 1st semester, and a 1st year and a 2nd year subject in 2nd semester, and then two 3rd year subjects in 2010. Got that? I'm confused just writing it. It means I won't do any practicum/placement until late next year but I can deal with that.
  
• blogging every day. Because NaBloPoMo is over. And I did it! Or so I say. I happen to like blogging and I have a lot more to say here. And I have a lot of time over the next 9 months to write stuff out. Not that many people are listening ;). I'm not going to do it through December as I have surgery in a few days, and I don't think I'll be up for it!
  

"Recognizing the central importance of listening and showing sincere compassion is the midwife's job. It can be challenging to be truly present all the time, but it is a quest we must all challenge ourselves to meet if we are drawn."

— Illysa Foster, CPM

A study to determine whether breech presentation at term is more common among women with at least one prior cesarean delivery showed a rate two times that for women who had had vaginal births. The study records of 84,688 women showed the relative risk of a breech presentation at term for women with a history of cesarean was 2.18, with no difference related to the number of cesareans. While a total of 2.46% of all women in the study had breech babies at term, 14.91% of those who had had a cesarean had a breech. The researchers took into account other factors, including gestational age, maternal age, parity, birth weight and oligohydramnios.

— Am J Obstet Gynecol, 13 Feb 2008 (10.1016/j.ajog.2007.11.009)

Have I told you lately how much I miss midwifery? I don't miss a lot of the minutea and crap that comes with it, but I do miss the women, and the births, and the antenatals care, and the breastfeeding help and the growing bellies. I need to make a board to remind me of this through the next looonnnggg period. You know - I could have a baby between now and when I go back to uni and births. That's a little sad and confronting. And so not on the cards.

from: Cambridge Midwives

Photo challenge

This weekend I have a lot of time to myself and while I want to finish knitting a project before I have my shoulder operation, I came up with a challenge to take some photos - feel free to steal and copy!

1. A self portrait
2. Where you live
   
3. Your favourite thing
4. A seasonal / nature shot
   
5. The place you spend most of your time
   
6. Something that sums up a dream / wish / goal / desire you have for the future
7. Happiness for you is...
   
8. Something you see on a walk / bike ride / picnic / drive / other activity you do this month
9. People you see but don't know
   
10. A typical meal or food experience for you
    

One down, one to go!

I sat one exam this morning and wrote wrote wrote for 2 solid hours. It was hard work - can't remember the last time I did that! I think I did quite well though so a good solid C here I come for that subject.

Now I want to sleep but instead I need to:

• call my lawyer regarding a letter I sent him 2 weeks ago
• fill in the form for surgery
  
• reset rent payment for Friday
  
• sort out a cleaner (I have quotes - just need to analyse and arrange)
  
• hang cork boards on side of shelving unit
  

But for now - a brief nap I think!

Treasure map

Millionaire Mommy Next Door has written some interesting and inspiring stuff recently. I'm not saying that she has all the answers, or that I want to be like her, or that I want to be a millionaire even, but her post on how to increase your financial bliss came out of her ealier post how to create a treasure map for a rich life and got me thinking.

I am heading towards the big 3-0 and more serious stuff (heck, I just made tea and cake for morning tea with my sometime-to-be-husband Manfriend, and it made me think of my dad's routine!) and if I had $1m in the bank at the moment, the interest alone would keep me in good stead. I could go and do indy midwifery for a reasonable income but also at an accessible rate for those who need it, I could sleep til I woke up, and I could do what I wanted to do because I wanted to do it, rather than feeling like I Have To Do It.

MMND's suggestions for making a treasure map for your rich life (and she doesn't just mean money-rich - it's whatever makes you happy!) is like making an ideas board for a designer, or a planning board for a large event - it's not hard but it is challenging.

1. Grab something to stick it on to (cardboard, thin plywood), as well as scissors, glue and sticky tape, pens and textas etc.
2. Grab any magazines you have handy for this kind of project and flip through them, cutting out whatever catches your eye. This can be quotes or pictures or stories or ideas - anything that inspires you and gets you thinking, or makes you curious as to why it tickles your mind.
3. Attach #2 to #1 with bits of #1 - just like in primary school! I've not made a collage in *years* and this is going to be fun!
4. Add notes and ideas into the collage for things that you've not been able to find pictures for, or can't yet articulate.
5. Review it all and see if it sums up "happiness" for you. If it doesn't, change it!
   
6. Title it, date it and sign it (my idea, not hers actually).
7. Work out how many moneybucks you need to live this kind of life. MMND suggests being specific rather than accurate - but also to write it down!
8. Hang your collage on the wall where you'll see it every day.
   

Interestingly, MMND goes on in later blog posts to look at how to identify and prioritise your values so that you can live according to them as a key to finding happiness. I know that when I am conflicted about something that I am doing, it is most often because it clashes with what I want to be doing - not just in a "I'd rather be doing anything other than studying" (oh look! I'm blogging instead!) way, but also in a deep down, do not want, do not agree with doing this kind of way.

Go and read and be inspired :).

Engagement party planning

Because it's my blog, because I'm in the home stretch of Nablopomo, and because the e party is next Saturday, here are some thoughts:

• I have a dress to wear. It is fabulous. I also have shoes to wear - I have to put some grip on the bottom of them still though!
  

• I'll deal with my hair next week - it may have faded a lot by then and need topping up but it may also be amazing still.

I need to organise a few things:

• food for me and Manfriend
• drinks for us as well
• rubbish bags
• card table
• things to sit on
  
• ice and ice boxes
• balloons so people can find us in the gardens
  
• eyebrow wax
• massage
• camera charged and ready to take photos
• napkins and plates (biodegradable)
• celebratory cupcakes (because I want them and my sister is an amazing pastry chef)
• Long Island Iced Tea (and a container to carry it in)
• ?music
  

Mix Master flashbacks

When I was little, my mother had a Mix Master. It had a particular smell to it - slightly sweet and a smidge oily and a lot of spice. She used it for cakes and bread and lots of other things and the sound of it is a lovely flashback to my childhood.

Anyway, I am now lusting after a Kitchen Aid.
To make bread. To make cakes. To make those desserts that I want to. It is TOTALLY a want, and I know that until maybe my 30th I'm not going to be able to justify such an indulgence, but I can still write about it, right? And label the post properly...

Flowers!

Summer doesn't really set in around here until late January, and in the meantime the flowers are gorgeous!













And proof that occassionally water does fall from the sky here:

Cube stools

So I am in need of some foot poofs and I was thinking of buying them because Ikea has such a firm hold over my thought processes when I think "house".

- As an aside, is anyone else curious as to how much Ikea is influencing Australia's way of seeing and celebrating Christmas? I love the orange and red decorations that are there but am still not moved to celebrate Christmas...

Anyway, in Ikea there are foot poofs that I like but are actually too large for the spot that I have on my loungeroom floor. So I was thinking like this:



as seen at Chez Larsson. I could get the timber cut at the House of Bun, I have a glue gun and a staple gun (and am not afraid to use them!) and I have a week or two to spare post exams so maybe I will...

10 things gone!

I challenge ye to get rid of:

1. ten pieces of clothing
2. ten books
3. ten craft supplies
4. ten useless pieces of paper
5. ten pieces of kitchen crap
6. ten cosmetic/grooming supplies and
7. ten things from your "study / basement / laundry / shed" or wherever things go to never be seen again
8. ten pairs of shoes or socks
9. ten toys
10. ten things out of your bathroom

I'll give you a month. I'll keep track on here as well. Take photos! Blog about it! Share it around!

Hair today, gone tomorrow

Before: , During: , After:

More photos are on Flickr oddly enough. It's a response to stress in part (exams, uni being horrible, work, injury, Centrelink... how much more can a girl handle?) but is also because I love love love having short hair. It's not that long ago that I had short hair that was also kind of blonde (it was more Tweety Bird than the lemon it is now though):


That was my 25th birthday, 3.5 years ago. I just threw the watch away as I'd worn the silver coating off it and it now left green marks on my arm. The necklace I still own and love to pieces. And the dress for that matter!

Names are such fascinating things!

I have friends in the USA, Canada, Europe, all states of Australia and in other places around the world. And I find it fascinating the names that are common in each spot. So here are 10 popular names in my circle of friends:

• Angela
  
• Emma
• Kate /Katie
• Rebecca
• Sarah

• Andrew
• Michael
• Alistair / Alasdair
• Nicholas
• Ian

And by popular I mean there are SO MANY people named these, the conversations go...

"So Andrew said",
"Wait - Andrew Mc, Andrew S, Andrew Sarah's Andrew, or the other Andrew?",
"Sarah's - J, not P"...

And names I want for my children:

• Persephone
• Taiven
• Indigo
• Saffron
• Dharia
• Grace
• Mathilde
• Paige
  

• Gaicimo
• Bexley
• Felix
• Xavier (why yes, I do seem to like my X names)
• Fabien
• Reuben
• Cade
• Bailey
• Finlay
  

I'd love to hear what other people can say, especially about the names that are common in their family or cirles!

Smoothie smoothie smoothie smoothie, wo oh oh oh oh oh...

Song lyrics to the some Ruby which I mashed up for that song title can be seen here.

A while ago I bought a cheap version of a Magic Bullet and I love it to pieces - I use it for so many things it was so worth the $30 it cost me at Spotlight. I've used it for:

• shreddding chocolate
• whipping cream
• making smoothies
• making dips
• chopping onions
  

Smoothie advice:

• Get some flavoured protein powder (vanilla is good as it means you get some sweetness and protein in it but it's not the One Flavour for every smoothie you make) so it fills you up more than just milk or water can;
• Chop fruit into bite sized pieces and freeze them. Rinse, pat dry and then freeze. You should use it up pretty quickly so don't worry about freezing it flat on something before packing away - it's pretty easy to chip apart! I freeze fruit (bits of strawberry that are sliced off other berries, frozen berries in general, orange, apple, banana) so that I have colds to go in the smoothie. This avoid using ice and increases my fruit content for the day.
• Experiment with milk - I've used soy as well as rice, cows, goats, UHT etc.
  
• Use ice to get an extra cold crunch. I'm going to try freezing coffee as well to see how that goes.

I would like to try some fruit / fruit juice ones too! But I'm not a big sweets person so I'm not in any rush for that.

Flowers and tools

Why is it that every new hobby I want to start, or interest I have, requires me to buy new tools? Yeesh. I've started some gardening and now I consider it probably necessary to replace the watering can that is cracked at the bottom, and with cake making I feel that I would like things to make decorations with. And to learn to make pretty flowers like frangipanis.

It comes back to priviledge in my mind, something which Kate at Craftastrophies has had me thinking about more recently. So many things with crafting come with priviledge, a surprisingly difficult word to spell. Here are a few:

• Access to skills through books, internet, shops and so forth - I don't have to find an artisan to teach me, or work it out for myself.
• I can read. I have experience with the technology associated with accessing information. That makes it very easy to just decide, on a whim, to learn how to do something.
  
• I have time to do these things - it is not taken up acquiring energy, water, healthcare, education etc.
  
• I also have money to do what is basically entertainment - it's certainly not a crucial life skill.
  
• It is socially acceptable for me to do what I want with my time, money and self, and it is not dictacted by my gender, class, caste or religion.

Hair!

I once upon a time had very short hair (2005):



And then grew it out (2006-2008):




And now:


I'm tempted to do this:



Any thoughts?

Laundry list of I wants

A list of things I'd like to have in my life right now. From the ridiculous to the sublime...

• tai chi classes
• a Kitchen Aid
• bookshelves assembled and help with moving books around
  
• a power drill (14V cordless Makita Li ion)
• Year in a Bottle (recipe book)
• Leticia shoes in Jade
• Wii fit
• garden makeover
• a hefty person for the day to help me do a few things around the house
• hand knitted socks
• A session at Cream - anything involving a body polish to be specific
• A trip to Sydney where the Squeaks x3 are free for the weekend and we can drink a lot and bond and shop on King Street and eat yum cha
• A house cleaner
  
• A weekend away with Manfriend, with a spa
• My car washed
• a visit with my grandparents
  

Yes today I'm struggling with what to write. It's halfway through the month and I'm running out of things to talk about. The things I want to talk about, I'm not going to on ye olde public blog. The things I've wanted to talk about on here, I have so far.

Oh, wait! I have an issue! Well a couple actually - mostly a flat battery in my camera which means I can't get photos I took today off it to show you. Which means I'll have to describe it instead. In my post about my kitchen, I didn't show you the top of the cupboard, above the shelving, because it's currently a mess and a half. I need to do some work on it - I think it'd fit maybe 16 milk crates but of course this illegal (their collection, not their use in my house) so I can't do that. So I'm after some names for similar items with which to fill the space and use it up, allowing me to organise a mishmash of glassware, small whitegoods, emergency foods and so forth that is on top of the "pantry" at the moment.

Chesticles

I would like a chest freezer. Since the advent of the piano and wardrobe and extra couch, we don't really have room, but I still want one because it makes so much sense to make:

• stock
• soup
• pies
• vegetables
• curries
• pasta sauce
• lasagne
• big purchases of meat
• chilli
• pies
• chicken nuggets
• fish sticks
• potato bakes
• pasta bakes
  

But really, we don't have the room. So I'm forced to limit (! unbelievable!) the amount of cooking and baking I do, as we have limited freezer space.

*sigh* it's annoying not having a House. I have a lovely semi-detached house (well, half a house I guess) but I'd love a whole house with a garage to put a car and a chest freezer and the bikes in, and a garden to dig in. It'll have to wait until uni is over and I have a job and a life again, right?

Back to exam study it is!

Ikea lust, list, loves and hackings

The Fira from Ikea is calling my name.

Thanks to my crafty brain, I look at it and think "change! colour! decorate!" and thanks to the fabulous sites of Ikea Hacker, Decor8 and Chez Larsson, I am inspired to learn how to decoupage and then pimp a few of these.

I also am thinking that this would work well in the Study of Doom

as it's quite a mess at the moment, partly because I have Too Much Stuff (TM) and because I have Too Little Storage (TM).

My house may smell like vanilla, but my kitchen looks like this!

No you eyes aren't deceiving you - I can't work out how to merge the two so that it shows one continuous shot across my kitchen. But isn't it neat? I love that part of my kitchen. Lots of open storage for my Tupperware and glassware, and teapots.

Buttons!

I saw a pdf for a button necklace the other day and was inspired to make things. Sarah from Frankie Fan 13's etsy shop (and sweet lovely friend as well!) made a very sweet necklace that I snaffled up, and one for Kate as well. It was amusing as I'd seen a green one on etsy, and Kate had too, and when she went back with a firm "I wants it and I'm going to haves it" she was devo* to find it not there. And thrilled when I gave it to her.

Anyway, I was talking about buttons. I own buttons. Lots of people have buttons. So I took my buttons and made these:


And then gave it away. Then made a few more. And gave them away too. I also made these:


Aren't they sweet? I love my hot glue gun. They're brooches by the way - itty bitty button brooches. Easy to make and great to look at!

* devo = mock devestation. Because the word "devestation" can be defined in my life at the moment but there are still times when I'm upset.

How do I study? Um...

1. Have a massage.
2. Make an acknowledgement/realisation that my exams are in just over 2 weeks.
3. Also acknowledge that I have done little study in the past few months (Life got in the way. More so than usual in the past 6 months. No excuses - just a statement).
4. Look at my marks so as to work out what I need to get in the exam to pass.
5. Realise that this is either 50% of the exam, or near enough.
6. Realise that I've done this process for the past few semesters and exam periods and still pull a really good GPA so I shouldn't really approach this from this angle... but I think I've been doing this since 1997.
7. Look at the practice exams and questions for my subjects.
   
8. Realise that the subjects I'm sitting exams for are not ones I can fake the answers to.
9. Make dinner.
10. Rearrange freezer.
11. Make bolognese sauce out of the kangaroo mince I bought today.
12. Rearrange study somewhat.
13. Discover moths in the dry store for the choir. Quietly freak out and decide to ignore it.
14. Make a coffee, move to the study and get down to business.

Proud of me?

Silent abuse - triggers, and a post in which I get rambly

Something different for today - a post about abuse. I've spent the past couple of months with a foam sling on my L arm when I'm at work, because I work at the House of Bun (a hardware store) and I have 1kg lifting restrictions on my arm, so I can't use it, but unless it's tied up, I tend to use it and it gets sore and I get really really grumpy.

By the way - Panadol Osteo is my best friend. Slow release paracetemol is the best for pain like I've got (joint pain) and I highly recommend that you talk to your GP about it if you have an ongoing issue. It reduces the overall amount of drugs that I'm taking and makes me less foul tempered and mouthed.

So anyway - the number of times people cracked jokes to me about my partner beating me and that's why I was in a sling. Why do people think that joking about domestic violence is amusing? There are lots of forms of overt abuse as well as a few that are "silent" - an article I came across recently about this really opened my eyes to the fact that a lot of what I went through as a child and teenager was this kind of abuse. It worries me a lot that I might fall into that cycle because I don't know how to deal otherwise with people. I'm very conscious of it now, especially in my close personal relationships, as I am worried about repeating the mistakes of the past, especially as I consider procreating.

On that line and in the vein of this is my blog and I can cry if I want to, I got contacted by my mother yesterday with her usual passive aggressive crap of "I have something for you let's meet up"... and this time, she also said that she had some things that she wanted to say to me and so maybe she'd email me. Now the quick among you will have noticed that she didn't say that she wanted to talk to me, or discuss things with me, or anything like that - she has some things to say to me. Unless they are very specific apologies for past wrongs, and a change in how she deals with a specific family member, then I am not the least bit interested in hearing what she has to say. Not the least bit interested in stirring up past hurts and incidents. Not the least bit interested in picking off scabs from wounds THAT HAVE HEALED in whatever fashion I have had to. And not the least bit interested in hearing her side of the story because I don't care whether there is a side to it other than my own. I just don't.

Skeletons and closets - that's a match made in heaven.

We are, generally speaking, a product of our past. We integrate things that have happened. We learn, and we move on. The moving on bit is REALLY important for our sanity, and for shaping who we are. Not who we were, or who we want to be in the future - but who we are right this freaking second. And given that I've been to two funerals in the past week and have had a crap day with my shoulder and physio, and am still not back at work, and am broke because of this, and am distressed enough without having to deal with 28 years of "things what made me Me", I politely messaged my mother with "thankyou but I don't need anything from you and don't think I want to hear what you have to say, so please don't email me".

And spent the next five minute crying. Just because I've made peace with not having my mother in my life doesn't mean that the pain of it goes away. It's taken me a LONG time to get to this point even, where I don't feel obliged to have anything to do with her - but I still feel that societal and probably primal requirement to have something to do with my dam. And knowing that she is not going to change, and that having her back in my life is just going to hurt and suck even more, makes me strong enough to send messages that make me want to throw up.

But being brave is not being terrified - it's about being terrified and still doing them. So I guess that makes me brave.

The post in which I reveal my easily-amused and slightly smutty side

• Before today's post, let me just say - if you're looking at buying someone's (chilli - details changed to protect the innocent), and you say you'll be there in 20 minutes, and aren't some 3 hours later, don't expect me to be in a good mood to haggle.
  
• Further, if you see it advertised for some $s, and you offer $-200 because you think I'm Just A Lady With A Simple Lady Mind, when you clearly don't know what I am offering for sale, I will proceed to talk rings around you and decline to haggle with you further.

Right, now that that's off my chest:
In other news, consider 9 awesome places to have sex (and the horrific consequences) which perhaps should be the "possible consequences" instead. And some disturbing sex toys.

One month til surgery. Freezer is full, exams are my focus, last week of work, weather warming up... yay.

More cake

I made another cake:



And it was yum. It was a chocolate cake with cream and strawberries on it. So simple and yet so elegant and easy!

But not really a Good Cake. The recipe is almost like a packet mix, and it's a pain to melt the ingredients and then cool them, and then add the flour and mix it up. The result isn't very light (although it is very tasty and lovely immediately after making) but next time I want to make Beatty's Chocolate Cake Recipe.

Tomatoes and aphids - well, aphids in general

A reader writes: "Bunnings girl - my tomatoes have aphids. What do I do?" and I replied something along the lines of "I'll write with a long email / blog post about it". Hey it's 2008 and recycling's all the go, right? So there's nothing wrong with taking an sms conversation and blogging...

In 2000 I did an honours degree in chemistry working on roses in pots, and because of what I was doing with them (over watering and over fertilising them) aphids were a huge problem. I wasn't about to use chemicals on these things when I spent 10 months in a greenhouse with them (I'm sensitive to chemicals as it is, and was especially then, and didn't want to make it worse!) so I used a good natural approach to aphid control.

Nightshade spray (so - tomatoes, eggplants, potatoes etc)
These fabulous plants have alkaloids in their leaves and you can extract them in a solvent (like water) quite easily. As it's the plant's natural defence, it tends to ward off the bad bugs and not affect the good ones.

This spray keeps for about a month before the effectiveness wears off, if you keep it in the fridge.

• 1-2 cups nightshade leaves (loosely packed), chopped up
• 1-2 cups boiled and cooled water
• Spray bottle
• Extra boiled and cooled water

Put the leaves in a jar and cover with water. Steep overnight. Strain well, and put in the spray bottle and add the same volume again of water. Shake and spray onto the leaves where you see the aphids - under leaves for eg.

Some people are allergic to nightshades (my sister for eg!) so be careful about labelling this!!

Maybe because I work in a hardward store (currently) or maybe because I love the idea of something other than Ikea in my house, but I'd love to make this Martha Stewart light display. It would be very easy to whip up (a canvas, an awl, some lights, some paint, and some lights) and fairly cheap... tempting!

Christmas, wedding, surgery...

* Christmas may be interesting this year. Surgery is on 10/12 and I'll have 2 weeks of being unable to move my arm, so it'll still be a case of "help me get dressed please" by that stage. I've politely suggested to the family that I'm not up for traveling 2 hours to celebrate Christmas (as much as I do anyway, which is minimally) and will be having a quiet time at home.

* Wedding plans are on hold at the moment or are going on in so much that we are still talking about it when we get the chance. Money comes into it a lot, and I am waiting until I see my dad in December to pick his brains about the trip we want to make. Well, I want to make - it's hard to get ManFriend to make any moves on this, whereas I desperately need something other than school and my injuries to think about.

* Shoulder surgery is set for 1 month, 1 week and 1 day away. That's kind of poignant. And look I did what any good blogger would do and put up a ticker for it. I have exams x2 between now and then as well. I am wondering how to prepare for the recovery period. I'm a bad patient - I don't rest, I do too much, I fret about things that need doing but not by mem and I am going to struggle to feed and entertain myself for at least 2 weeks if not more. I found a great website on recovery from a broken leg but nothing similar for a shoulder; there are lots of similar things to take away!

Working with colour

In my job at the House of Bun, I tinted paint and gave assvice to people about what colours to paint their walls. I love doing this and trying to get people to paint something other than Antique White U.S.A. or Hogsbristle 1/4 strength (which are 2 of the thousand or so shades of white that are available).

When it comes to colour, I'm not actually gifted with something special but as a woman, I am better equipped to discern colours and care about them (there is research on this that I can't find right this second though!) and I like playing with them. I'm also S-M-R-T when it comes to talking people into what they want to hear.

I also love Behr.com's Color Smart (their spelling not mine!) where you can go and find a colour or two or three that you have, and then play around with what proportions to work with, or else to look at what other colour(s) you should/could put together with them.

This works for:

• outfits
• painting rooms
• designing knitwear
• painting canvases
• putting yarn together
• using up craft supplies that are coloured but you need one more colour
• cake decorating

It shouldn't be used for:

• eyeshadow choice
• cake decorating if you haven't looked at Cake Wrecks recently
• painting someone else's house
• overcoming colourblindness, as my dad tells me, as it just tells you if you can put colours together - not so much if you should do it!

So next time you have 3 balls or yarn, or some canvases to paint, or some time on your hands to "paint" the bathroom of your dreams, then try that website! You have to register but not pay for it and it's a lot of fun.

A day of Cream...?

I need a day at the Cream Day Spa. I'd love to be scrubbed from head to toe. In Sydney there is the Ginseng Bath House and it is amazing. Well, it was amazing. It was closed for refurbishment last time I was in Sydney, and has only just reopened, but there is nothing equivalent to it in Adelaide. I am unsure of how it is now as I've not been back since it was reopened, and who knows how things could change, but the idea of going naked, of being soaked and pampered, of being scrubbed to within an inch of my inner organs, and enjoying it - and then having cheese and tomato sandwiches and tea in the waiting area before going back for more soaking - just sounds like heaven at the moment.

And/or a massage. I could deal with an aromatherapy massage as well. I am in need of pampering and stress relief. I have a lot on my mind and it's distressing of my psyche, which is not healthy. I have school (exams soon, and having to withdraw from a course because of my surgery on 10/12), births that I'm missing, women who I'm having to let down, bills that are due, no income, and lots of angst about my injuries.

So Christmas fairy - that's what I feel like. If any gifts are in the offering at the moment, which I'm not sure that they are (due to family angst as well *sigh*) then can it be something that I want? kthnxby

What to do with 2 skeins of sock yarn...

when you don't knit socks? You have a look at Simple Knits: 653 patterns to knit with 1-285 yards of yarn!

I have 384y of Knit Picks Memories (no longer made but linked to Ravelry) to use so will have to find something to do with it. Or trade it. For crafty favours.

Apricot chicken recipe, and thoughts on my childhood

My favourite comfort dishes as a child were sweet and sour sausages, fish pie, and apricot chicken. A few months ago, ManFriend had an unfortunate experience of reverse sweetandsoursausuages and has sworn me to never ever make it again for him ever. So I will at some point archive it here for posterity, and will also post fish pie, and apricot chicken.

It's funny - no specific sweets really stand out as "foods that highlighted my childhood". I've never had a sweet tooth. I was the kid who wanted water instead of cordial, and vegemite on Vitaweet instead of sweet biscuits; who wanted Saos instead of cream biscuits, and hated fruit but wanted carrot in her lunch box; and for whom dessert wasn't a great motivator. Desserts that I do remember loving:

• self-saucing pudding (butterscotch, blackberry, lemon - but not chocolate)
• apple turnovers
• stewed apple and cream
  
• sponge cake with strawberry jam and strawberries and cream
• trifle
• royal icing off christmas cake as I don't like cake
• pikelets (very occassionally)
  

Other savoury things that my family made and I "grew up on" would be:

• mashed potato wrapped in slices of fritz
• really awful bland chicken soup with equally bland scones (wow that's SO not a favourite but is something I definitely remember!)
• baked soy and honey chicken legs
• bolognese
• lasagne
• sausages sliced up the middle and stuffed with cheese, with mashed potato and gravy, and veges on the side
• chicken satay on rice
  

Awww now I'm all wistful. And I should go fold some clothes, and study. So - a simple recipe for apricot chicken.

Apricot Chicken (serves 5-6 times which for us was two for dinner, two for the freezer, and two for leftovers)

4 carrots, chunkily sliced
1.5 chicken breasts, chunkily sliced
4 garlic cloves, chunkily sliced
1L boiling chicken stock
1 410g ish tin of apricots
1 shake of spices (as you like - I used a dash of cayene and some nutmeg, with pepper as well as the stock was quite salty)

Arrange in a deep baking dish in that order. Bake loosely covered with foil, at 200C for about an hour. Stir and add some frozen veges. Bake for a further 15 minutes. Add a dash of cream and stir. Make some rice. Serve up.

Yum. I need seconds.

(Manfriend just leant over and asked me if I had a tape measure. And if not, would it be in my apron. 0_O. We both work at the House of Bun and this is funny in the context of, at work, we do indeed both have tape measures on us. At home, I don't usually have it *on* me but I do own a few... it was just a tad random. And amusing.)

Welcome to NaBloPoMo

Last year I wrote a novel in a month (NaNoWriMo). It's a piece of fluff and not really "finished" but it's done. I achieved something in that month that is slightly lacking in me. At some point in my life I lost the daring that I should have to try new things. I am wary of trying anything that I might fail at, because perhaps I can't deal with failure at the moment.

*Anyway*, I'm writing a blog post a day this month. It's part of the NaBloPoMo program and you can find me on there as HouseofVanilla.

What colour are you?

you are aqua #00FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

You know you want to.

I'm kind of surprised that I came up aqua. I've got an aqua obsession at the moment.

Based on colours I like, I could also have been crimson or darkorange - yellow if you push me. So where the aqua came from is anyone's guess.

Quasi instant soup

I hate instant packet soup. Canned soup doesn't do it for me either. So when I had a friend to feed last night, what'a girl to do?

Well in my case, you take ~1L of stock (in this case lamb stock for which I had no other plans - it was great, it was lovely, it wasn't uber salty, but it isn't called for very often in recipes!) and put in 2 piece of mince that you've packed previously into a hamburger press, so that 500g ish went into 6 patties (so about 85g mince each) and bring to the boil. Mush the mince up a bit to make it into balls if you can / want to. Add about a cup of frozen veges - I used a combination of beans, carrots and baby corn. Adjust the seasoning to what you want - I used oyster, soy, plum and a dab of chilli sauce, but you could also use tomato-y type flavours, or sesame and chilli, or sweet and sour, or anything you'd like. Add 250g rice noodles (vermicelli or angle hair) and boil some more. Taste and adjust the seasoning.

Eat.

Absolutely fabulous for:

• using up bits and pieces in the freezer and fridge;
• watching your weight;
• instant food any night of the week
• feeding friends
• impressing anyone you've brought home ;)
  

My house *doesn't* smell like vanilla!

The moron who lives across the road is a moron. He drives a revolting V8 which is horribly tuned and idles far too fast and in the morning, he gets up at 5am and moves the car outside his garage and front fence, to park in front of our house. How do I know this, when I don't willingly get up at 5am? Because his car is LOUD and rumbly and is so revoltingly EXHAUSTY that it gets into our place and makes my sinuses ache and my stomach clench. Which wakes me up, whereupon I ponder the meaning of life and the sanity of living across the road from him and plot his downfall.

He then leaves at 6:35am and goes to work. He returns at 2pm ish and pulls into his driveway a smidge, and leaves the car idling while he gets out and opens his gate and then his garage door before driving into it. He does this by planting his foot and accelerating fast into the garage then slamming on the brakes.

If I'm sitting on the couch with the front door open, I score a lovely house full of disgusting black grey greasy smoke. I usually get up and SLAM the front door while muttering under my breath because it is RUDE and it is gross and revolting, and because I have previously asked him not to frickin' do it.

In other news of neighbours I hate to live near - the guy down the road with the Land Cruiser that he doesn't warm up before driving off so it blows smoke, pings and chugs until it gets around the corner, people who are stupid enough to rat run via the maze of streets next to our house which doesn't get you anywhere because of the one-way streets that funnel cars around where people are trying to rat run. It's annoying. ManFriend and I are known to mutter "frickin' tourists" when that happens.

Oh while I'm at it - long trucks that try to do this and hit cars in the process of driving around back streets, I curse you.

AND - the light on the corner of the street near us? Annoyingly bright. And angled into our bedroom. Not impressed. Not owning a sling-shot means I can't shoot it out.

AND further: the council recently approved the moving of a business into a large house at the end of our street. This is a residential area. And now there are 20 cars parked on our street. So a normal back street street is now a parking area. And if one more of them park across my driveway, there will be words spoken.

It's a good thing I have a very cute kitty though - she cheers me up.
This is Zaria. She is 9 years old and has lived in lots of places with me. She is very pretty, is a character and a half, and is fabulous company. She is determined to grown bindies this year so I have to brush her every day. She has a couple of local friends because she's so friendly - neighbours stop to chat, people walking home visit with her, little children come to visit too. It's very cute.

More about me

I'm a late-20 something year old women from Adelaide. I live in a rented home (half a house and my neighbours annoy me) with my manfriend and a kitty. I have a bright yellow car and (currently) a scooter. I do a lot of crafty things. I am working towards being a midwife, which is truly my calling. I love dancing, the colour red, peppermint, coffee and lamb more than chicken.

In 2007, I had an accident that has left me dealing with lots of fun things like insurance companies, left shoulders, lawyers, university, surgery, the future, rehabilitation and everything else, so there may be some things about that on here.

At some point soon I will get married. We're not getting weddinged though so no bridal pr0n or bridezilla moments on here though! We're having a destination wedding to New Zealand but y'all not invited - it's more polite for me to say "we're eloping" but I still get to talk about things here, right?

Cake stands and so forth

I found a great post the other day for a cake stand making tutorial and wanted to archive it here for future reference. I have been working on my cupcake recipe and wanted to write that out here too! With some photos for decoration.

Basic vanilla cupcake recipe
125g butter (I use salted butter bought in a block)
3/4 C sugar
2 eggs
1/2 tsp Queen vanilla bean paste with vanilla seeds
1 1/2 C self raising flour
1 tsp baking powder
1/3 C milk
1T milk

Have the butter at room temperature then beat it with the sugar until it is paler than originally. Add the vanilla (you can use 1 tsp vanilla essence instead) and one egg and beat well. Add the other egg and beat some more. Remove the beaters and grab a spatula.

Sift in 3/4 C of flour with the extra self raising flour. Add half the milk and mix gently through. Add the remaining flour and fold in gently. Add the remaining milk from the 1/3C and mix in. The mix should hold a peak but not be too stiff - add a smidge more milk if you need to get it to "plopping" consistency.

Half-fill cupcake liners in your patty pan and bake at 180-190C for 10-15 minutes. Make sure you keep an eye on them - they are done when slightly golden brown on top. Remove from over, remove from pan, and cool on a wire rack.

Some notes on ingredients:

• I'll never ever go back to imitation vanilla essence. If you're going to bake, please use the best you can find. I love the paste I've linked to and while it's expensive, I use 1/2 the recommended amount for a recipe and it gives such an amazingly real, vanilla, homemade flavour. It also adds extra liquid to the mix which tends to keep the crumb happy.
• Use the best ingredients you can find. Cake making is about making love in little patty cases so don't scrimp on it. I use generic sugar, but I do use the best flour I can find at the time.
• Play around with patty liners and pans. I like the stiffer paper ones rather than the really cheap thin ones. I also love love love individual silicone ones that you remove afterwards - great for mini bite sized ones! I tend to fill 12 of the paper cases and then use the rest of the mix in the silicone cases.
  
• Use good eggs. I use free range ones locally produced and bought. I find that battery hen ones are pale, insipid, and watery. Yuk.
  

Icing: Ok I'm not the most sophisticated cake maker and decorator yet. But I love making them and icing them. I colour my icing because it adds something extra to the whole experience. My basic icing recipe:

1T salted butter
a dash of lemon juice
a dash of hot water
icing sugar
food colouring

Put the butter in a small bowl. Add a heaped teaspoon of icing sugar and mix in. Add a few drops of lemon juice and mix in. Add more icing sugar and mix in. Add a dash of hot water and mix well. Taste. If it's not sweet but it buttery, add more sugar. If it's sweet and only sweet, add more lemon juice. If it's too lemony, add a smidge more hot water. Colour and apply.

Contro-versial!

1. Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?
Yup - it's a new blog, no one is around to unfriend me, and meh I feel like a distraction.

2. Would you do meth if it was legal?
No - as a holder of 2 degrees in chemistry, I know far too much about how it's made, who it's made by, and where it's made.

3. Abortion: for or against it?
For it being available to anyone who wants or needs it. None of my business why that may be, but if it's not my body it's not my business. I believe that life begins at viability, and that that is when a babe is able to take a breath outside of its mother's body relatively unassisted... which puts it somewhere in the third trimester of pregnancy. I don't agree with the huge expenditure of resources applied to keeping extremely premature babes alive and think this kind of act will have to be rationalised in the future which is sad for people who don't agree but not something I'd change if I was in the situation.

4. Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
How much does this question say about the place that the USA thinks it has in the world right now????

Ahem.

If the first president of Australia was female, I would sell my body to get everyone I know to move to Australia. We would be a better place if we had more women in positions of power. It would also show that we as a country were a lot more progressive than having people like John Howard as our prime minister...

5. Do you believe in the death penalty?
No. As a holder of a forensics degree, I would be horrified if someone's life was taken because of evidence I processed. I also believe that life imprisonment without parole is much better punishment than instant death.

6. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
I'd rather see this legalised and taxed more than tobacco.

7. Are you for or against premarital sex?
For. I think anyone who waits until they're married is missing out on developing a part of themselves that allows them to be good partners, and also true to themselves. There are so many things to be learned from negotiating that, and it shouldn't wait until you're already married before being negotiated. I'm not for "early teenagehood sex" and I may change my tune when I have children of my own, but I hope that they can always ask me about it and can work it out for themselves.

8. Do you believe in God?
No. I do believe in something spiritual and that we have more energy going out of us into the universe than just our physical existence.

9. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalised?
Yes. I think that, if two people want to make vows to each other, then they should be recognised legally as partners in law.

10. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
No idea - not from the USA. Illegal immigrants here though affect my life in a way that is hard to explain. We're a large island in the middle of a big ocean a long way from anywhere. Anyone who has come here as an "illegal immigrant" has worked damn hard and taken lots of risks to get here. I would rather

11. A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Why are you asking my opinion - cf comments about abortion? In my (newish, not yet complete) role as a midwife I've already worked with 14 year olds who are having baby #3 and while I am disheartened that girls that age either don't have the sexual education to understand how to avoid pregnancy, or are in a position where having a baby seems like a good idea (baby bonus, welfare state, crap education, no employment opportunities, I'm looking at you), it's not for me or someone else to say that they should keep it or not. Adoption should be a lot easier in Australia, and fostering should be healthily rewarded.

12. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
Mwahahaha trick question! It is here and really, I think education about alcohol should be increased in high school so children can make better decisions about these things.

13. Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yes. Not sure what it is trying to achieve right now.

14. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No I don't. I think it should be assisted under very strict circumstances.

15. Do you believe in spanking your children?
I don't agree with hitting children at all. Swatting children away from danger when they're too young to understand danger or "no" is one thing; inflicting harm or pain as punishment is not ok.

16. Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
No. Nor any other flag.

17. Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
Obama. If I had a vote. I do wonder what is going on in the USA though that McCain is getting so many votes - he is portrayed quite differently here to what I suppose is being portrayed in the USA.

18. Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Judge? No, not really. You're entitled to your opinion, and to copy and paste this one if you're brave enough. Well actually that's not true. I do expect to be judged because anyone who claims not to be judgemental is delusional instead. We are all judgey-judgey but it's whether people's opinion of me will change because of this meme. Probably, given that I have pretty liberal views on some/most things.

My house really *does* smell like vanilla today!

My oil burner in my study has the following in it:

• rose absolute (against the blues)
  
• vanilla absolute (anti-anxiety)
  
• orange essential oil (also anti-depressant)
  

and it is smelling its happy way through my whole house.

I should be doing homework. I have work to do on electronic fetal monitoring / cardiotocography at the moment, and exams to prep for. But I did hydrotherapy this morning and my shoulder is killing me so I am not overly inspired to do so. Heh I just realised the blend I've got is probably because I am feeling anxious and a little blue about school, life and money in general.

*tap* *tap* *tap* is this thing on?

I am eating a ham and cheese "toasted" sandwich that tastes vaguely of roses. I've just worked out that it's because the bread was sitting next to a ziplock bag of solid henna, which is kind of rose scented. Strange but true.

Hi. Welcome to my blog. This is a new blog bringing together a couple of other blogs - Knitting by Zen, and Midwifery is Catching. I'm moving house as I want to bring together a lot of things in my life under one roof, and it's easier to do that than to update the other places repeatedly. Plus I realised the other day that I am one person, not different aspects of the same person (woh deep and meaningful for this time of the morning) and 2009 should be a really interesting year.

100 things to cook and/or eat

From scratch even! Cooked = bold, eaten = italics. It's a list from around the internet that I've adjusted to Australia as some of them weren't foods I knew of. Gives me some ideas of what else to cook too.

Breakfast

1. Eggs Benedict
2. Quiche
3. Frittata
4. Waffles
5. Cinnamon Rolls
6. Pancakes
7. Hashbrowns
8. French Toast
9. Bircher muesli
   

Nibbles

1. Pate
2. Oysters
3. Tabbouleh
4. Egg Rolls
5. Fish Cakes
6. Pierogies
7. Falafel
8. Voulevants
9. Salsa Verde
10. Wontons
11. Baba Ganoush
    

Sweets

1. Profieroles
2. Bread Pudding
3. Tart
4. Banana Caramel Pie
5. Cannoli
6. Chocolate Chip Cookies
7. Pumpkin Pie
8. Fruit Juice Jelly
9. Truffles
10. Brownies
11. Chocolate Mousse
12. Sponge Cake
13. Cheesecake
14. Creme Caramel
15. Apple Pie

Side Dishes

1. Brussel Sprouts
2. Mashed Potato
3. Fried Rice
4. Stuffing
5. Potato Pancakes
6. Potato Salad
7. French Fries

Bread

1. Naan
2. Tortillas
3. Croissants
4. Bread
5. Pizza Dough
6. Garlic Bread
7. Beer Bread
8. Zucchini Bread
9. Pita Bread

Soup

1. Chicken Stock
2. Bean Chowder
3. 44 Clove Garlic Soup
4. French Onion Soup

Meat

1. Bangers and Mash
2. Chicken Masala
3. Blackened Chicken
4. Braised Chicken
5. Coq au Vin
6. Beef Roast
7. Meatloaf
8. Chicken with 40 cloves of garlic
9. Baked Whole Fish
10. Sweet and Sour Chicken
11. Stuffed Chicken Breasts
12. Beef Wellington
13. Koto Sto Phyllo
14. Beer Can Chicken
15. Yiros
16. Cornish Game Hens

Pasta

1. Bolognaise
2. Manicotti
3. Homemade Ravioli
4. Homemade Gnocchi
5. Zucchini Strand Spaghetti
6. Stuffed Shells
7. Lasagna

Main Dishes

1. Ratatoille
2. Navy Beans
3. Risotto
4. Curry
5. Paella
6. Tortilla Espanola
7. Sushi
8. Pad Thai
9. Stew
10. Eggplant Parmesan

Other

1. Jam
2. Gravy
3. Ruth Reichl Recipe
4. Quinoa
5. Cheese
6. Dill Pickles
7. Tzatziki
8. Dumplings
9. Bechemel
10. Souffle
11. Tomato Sauce
12. Alfredo Sauce

The BRAN idea - applied to a reallife situation even!

I like the BRAN idea - what are the: Benefits? Risks? Alternatives? what if we do Nothing? Let's pick something like, say, ttc later this year.

Benefits:

• I'm 29 and ManFriend is nearly 30 so now's a good time, and a better time than the future physically and oocyte'ly.
• We are about as Grown Up as we're going to get
  
• We are smart and see that replacing ourselves with a person or two who is also smart and resourceful is a Good Idea.
• Babies are cute and gorgeous and a source of love and fun. Toddlers are cute and squishable and fun. Kids are fabulous and individual. Teenagers are too.
• We want kid(s) and it's something we want to do to complete our lives. We have talked about this.
  

Risks:

• My physical fitness
• Money
• Conflicts between parenting and working/studying
• Needing to move house to set up for a family
  

Alternatives

• Waiting (not really an alternative as age will start to play a part in the risk profile of it, and we don't want to be too old to be having fun with kids!)
• Adopting ($$$$$ and hard in Australia)
• Fostering (hard and $$)
• Not (not an option for us to consider - we both want to, a lot)

Not doing anything

• Awwwwwwwwwww but we want to ;)
• There are 7 years left before I hit what I think of as my deadline (35) so it's not that bad to do nothing